wearing: printed jumpsuit c/o Noirhues.com
A recent conversation with my dear cousin sparked a thought in my messy head. He said, "you seem like you're an escapist". Now, i've googled it and it's basically this: a mental diversion by means of entertainment or recreation, as an "escape" from the perceived unpleasant or banal aspects of daily life. It can also be used as a term to define the actions people take to help relieve persisting feelings of depression or general sadness.
I am an escapist.
I've been editing my pictures from my recent trip to bangkok (also hashtagged as #YINGYANGKOK if y'all remember) i've come to realize how true this is. I remember the sole reason for this trip: to escape. My exact words were, "i need to escape, let's go to bangkok" and I was just lucky enough that ellie had been wanting to visit the land of smiles for a long time and a thumbs up from the mama bear could only make me even luckier. "Go and forget everything, come back and start again." she said, that night when i was in her arms, sobbing like a child. I did, and i came back as refreshed as ever with all the memorable bangkok moments tucked into the corners of my heart. Crazy tuktuk rides, roadside meals and most definitely alllllll the shopping! I pull them out for rainy days where life hits me hard in the chest (ow) and i savour every moment where i was free and far away from reality and i guess..... that's how i deal. i'm I'm pretty lucky to live the life i live and i thank god everyday for the people who have kept pushing me through.
Things have began to feel bumpy recently and i'm trying so desperately to stay afloat. I think,
It's time to leave again.
(more visuals from bangkok soon!)
forty + nine
Wearing: maroon sweater from H&M, Thrifted white shorts, Zara purse, Zara Heels
Shot this one humid evening with the help of a dear friend (Hi shaq!) for a feature on stylexstyle which you can read HERE! I'm not one for colours in my daily ensembles, as you can tell by my CONSTANT use of dark hues like black and grey. But, i'm actually really diggin' this maroon and white look, a nice alternative from the usual red-&-white get ups we see on national day. I think we all remember the days of going to school in red & white on the 9th of august, no? I was part of this patriotic tradition for a good 11 years, and i still cringed EVERYTIME. "Can i wear maroon?" "NO, only red" I'm sorry, i just don't DO RED. Except the lippie. You gotta have the red lippie.
oh crap, i'm rambling again.
Happy (belated) Birthday you little red dot!
Bout that film lyfe #2
(shot with a Kodak disposable camera)
This pretty much sums up how my two week long holiday went. Lots of laughter, sleepovers at the alphacave, friday nights at simpang with the gang, rare date nights and most importantly: my trusty disposable camera to capture every moment. I've been getting a lot of questions about my film pictures and the way they turn out so here you go, guys! i'm no film photography afficionado but i really hope to keep shooting in film for a while. Maybe it's time to invest in a good film camera, even. But hmm, my love for disposable camera will be here for a while, because i love the way it sounds when i wind it up for a picture and i love the bright, blinding flash that comes after the very unimpressive "click" (as ellie always says)
I love how you have to wait until the end of the roll to see shots taken, it's kinda like christmas really.